we faced pretty heavy whether it was snowing then it was the rain that it was snowing that and then rain then snowing I don't know man the weather is going crazy but I like it anyway and I discovered that even if People's sites look better than me it doesn't really matter because this site is me I like to create and I like to do stuff but if I don't impress my family nothing I crave will be as good maybe I'm not as good...I don't know really I might really end up being the worst thing they created or the best thing they created I don't want to disappoint my parents since one is gone and was still looking at me as if I'm going to make this family better and I don't want all of it to fall down and the pressure is too much and I feel like it's too much.

Sumiko (8:00 pm)I got surprised by a full roasted chicken like and it was delicious mixed with Shawarma and potato chips it delicious.

but I wish I wasn't really, every time I tell my parents or my family in general something serious they Point and laugh at me or they're not even interested in what I say from youngest to oldest and it's really frustrating . you know what else is frustrating you doing everything you can to impress this family and then having one of the biggest challenges in your life and every time you say oh it's going to be easy they tell you know it's not going to be easier you're going to fail you're going to fail you're going to fucking fail you failure and then we need to say to them yeah I'm going to feel they be like oh you know you're not going to fail baby you're a good one at this don't worry it's going to be easy...sometimes I feel lost like I'm in a static TV broken, well this has been a long vent

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