2026/3/6

assignments are splitting me in half and cutting me open to eat my flesh like I'm in an alien movie but anyways i made this is from my little sister's birthday

2026/3/16

well it's close to Ramadan ending and it's kind of sad that I didn't get to enjoy it I had all these assignments exams projects and more and more even after even after Ramadan ends I still have a lot of assignments I can do this man but like I'm tired of this sh-t...you know I might open commission soon you know making the pressure on myself much more and more and more difficult

2026/3/27

hey guys....I'm back it's been long but there isn't really much updates to talk about I mean my Art improved really I'm starting to learn more Anatomy to make it look better actually and and I'm getting restricted usage on my OWN laptop but I have to talk faster since I'm scared somebody will break the door right now and take it away from me so yeah im fine

i miss him

I never got to say goodbye and I never got to tell him how much he did for me was enough and everything he did was appreciated and he was doing too much too much he worked himself to death just to put food on the table he always gave me what I wanted even when it was late eat them I fucking hate them I hope that every time they mention his name as if it was a number they get stabbed...just one dumb tik tok had me remembering all of it all over again his dead body the way he laughed talked the way he worked everyday with no break at all, grief is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy it's one of the most sick and twisted things that a human can feel it eats you alive

2026/4/18

holy shit I haven't updated in a while haven't I well it's been a long time since I opened my neocities website... everything has been going down and up right and left I don't know what's happening in my life really it's complicated school is making everything complicated for me and it's making me want to die now I never get suicidal thoughts until I enter school it's horrible terrible even